Life, sobriety, knowing that the more things I learn the more I can accomplish. Cooking, carpentry, mechanic work, and writing a book are things I have attempted and excelled at in the past year.
I am sure my story is like many others. Education was not considered important by my family. Working was important. From a young age my brother and I worked along our father's side afternoons, nights and weekends, doing yard work, cleaning commercial businesses or whatever he deemed necessary. As a result my brother dropped out of school in the 8th grade, I managed to make it to the 10th grade before working until 4:00 am each morning made me too tired to continue with school and I also dropped out.
I also had what is now labeled ADHD and that always seemed to incur my father's wrath.
Fast forward. Past addiction and making amends for bad decisions are my current ongoing struggles. I keep pushing myself in spite of my past to achieve all that I can. What keeps me going is the desire not to let myself or those who believe in me down. What inspires me to a greater extent is that I want to share what I've learned with others. The new found knowledge that if you don't pass up opportunities you and others can benefit in so many ways.
It takes effort - some days I think "if only I didn't have a record", but of course, without that I would not be who I am today. Each day of my past, good or bad, has been my journey to now. I know deep down inside that I am on the right path and that believing in myself is the best thing I've ever done for me.